Just think about it all for a minute...and then move on.

"As democracy is perfected, the office of president represents, more and more closely, the inner soul of the people. On some great and glorious day the plain folks of the land will reach their heart's desire at last and the White House will be adorned by a downright moron."
H. L. Mencken

That's it.

Everything is Wrong
-- By 'Everything Is Wrong' I mean EVERYTHING. I look around me - I'm typing on a plastic and metal and glass computer perched on a desk made from cut down trees and toxic paint. I sit in a building made of wood and bricks that were taken from the earth on a street made of poisonous asphalt that was laid over an ecosystem that had thrived for hundreds of thousands of years. I'm clothed in cotton that was saturated with pesticides while it grew and treated and dyed with toxic chemicals while it was being processed. All of my possessions were made hundreds or thousands of miles away and shipped in styrofaom and plastic wrap via gas burning engines and destructive road and air ways to me. My food, although organically grown and completely vegan, is shipped from where it was grown to my local stores and is often packaged in paper, plastic, metal, and toxic inks. I know tons of people that eat meat, smoke cigarettes, drive cars, use drugs, etc., even though they know these things will ultimately hurt the quality (and length) of their lives. I live in an apartment building where no one is on a first name basis. I know more about idiot actors in Hollywood that I've never met than I do about the woman who lives next door to me (and is probably more interesting). While walking to work I inhale toxic exhaust from cars sitting in traffic.

To make sure that eating 3 cans of oven cleaner will make you sick, or to make sure that pouring nail polish remover into your eyes will hurt you, we torture mice, rabbits, dogs, cats, etc. We use toxic chloring bleach to keep our underpants white. We cut down the rainforests to drill for oil so that we can drive to the video store. Do you see what I mean? Everything really is wrong. Even the back-to-nature people still drive cars and use products made from materials ripped out of the earth. People struggle all of their lives doing work they hate just to be a functioning member of a system that is wasteful, destructive, and unhealthy.

What I advocate is this: a sensible, pragmatic, and non-destructive approach towards existence. We need to re-evaluate our practices. Just as it doesn't make sense to hire an elevator operator to run an automatic elevator, it doesn't make sense for billions of people to drive to work alone in their cars. It doesn't make sense to consume animal products. It doesn't make sense to use pesticides on agricultural products. It doesn't make sense to derive power from nuclear, coal, and petroleum when we have solar, hydro, and wind power. It doesn't make sense to maintain destructive systems just because people earn their livings from them. It doesn't make sense to pour billions of tons of toxic chemicals onto our lawns so that they'll look pretty and green. I could go on but you're probably either bored or overwhelmed by now. I advocate change; massive, massive change.

Basically we should stop doing those things that are destructive to the environment, other creatures, and ourselves and figure out new ways of existing. That's it.

- Moby

I love Saturdays

This is the first Saturday that I've had in a while where I did absolutely nothing. I am loving it. I could have easily not have gotten out of bed, but I did finally decide to take a shower. Lazy Saturdays are key to recharging.

Lucky me

I never thought I would be one of those women who chooses career over mmmmm...pretty much everything else. And well, I'm not that woman, but sometimes I feel the pull. I'm a natural competitor, and it becomes very tempting to see what I can accomplish in the corporate world. But in the grand scheme of things, it's not what I want for my life. I want to be able to give to others though. I would like to be able to give monetarily, but also give of myself- and I'm stuck in the rut of believing that you need money to free up your time and open doors for you. This bothers me.

Rudy, Rudy, Rudy, Rudy rockin' everywhere!

I'm baaaaccckkk! I'm the worst at maintaining communication. This I know. Slap me silly for it next time you see me. But in the meantime, check back in on my blog because I plan to keep regular updates coming.

The latest- I have a new boyfriend...can you really call him new after 7 months? Anyway, he's what I've always dreamed about...aaahhhhh...ain't it sweet? But seriously he is. He's a challenge. But has a heart of gold. Perhaps we were made from the same mold.

I have a new job- although again not so new anymore. It's a struggle some days, and other days it's a challenge- which I've already established that I like. I don't really care too much for the people. There's a lot of favoritism going around. But once some of that favoritism comes my way, then we're talking.

I miss my girlfriends. Two of them are headed off to Japan. I don't have a lot of girlfriends in this hemisphere (or in either hemisphere for that matter), and in a few months I will have one less. Geez.

I have new living arrangements. It's okay. Old house. Lots of character. And a total pain in my ass on most days. Nothing works like it should, so there's a lot of rigging things and jamming things and sometimes straight-up kicking things. And a whole lot of ignoring things...like the nauseatingly dirty bathroom floor. But it's pointless to clean it, which I've done on my hands and knees, because it is nauseatingly gross again in 20 minutes.

I'm at a good place in my life. Things are settling down. I'm thinking about settling down. And then in the same breath I think about studying French in Paris or selling all my possessions and moving to Africa. I guess I better give this a little more thought.

And finally a bedtime thought before I doze off to sleep...

I've realized that we are all pawns of a greater network of greedy mother-fuckers. In general, the population is content to remain in the dark and deceived by these assholes. The world is set-up so that everything makes so much more sense if you just follow in line and do what everyone else does. Don't do it. That's not living, folks. Wake up. There is good in people, but we are so distracted by the line of bullshit that we are fed day in and day out that we choose to believe the worst in people. And they, in turn, live up to our expectations. One love. Peace.

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